I am an Oprah Winfrey junkie. I think she has a way of making me think, and see things from a different perspective. I have had a ton of "aha" moments.
Yesterday was the launch of her own network. Now I can watch her 24 hours a day. My favorite show so far is "Enough Already with Peter Walsh". I feel like I should stand up in front of the world and say "My name is Kate Murray, and I am a clutter bug." I believe Peter when he says that in a cluttered home lives someone with a cluttered mind. Don't get me wrong, I am not a hoarder, but I do have a ton of things in my house that I don't need. The things that I have are not organized at all and it is a dream of mine to get it under control and keep it that way.
It is no secret to anyone that has ever met me that I suffer from a great deal of anxiety. My mind is always going at warp speed in many different directions. I have been working on this for years, and it is a dream of mine to be able to make it slow down so I can live in the moment. I want to be able to focus on one thing instead of trying to take care of too many things at once. There is no way that I can do a good job on any of them. Over the weekend I was watching my sister play with her kids and really be present. If I was doing it I would have been thinking of all the things I could or should be doing, and my kids get don't ever get my undivided attention. One day soon they are going to really understand this and it makes me queasy to think about it.
In 2011 I pledge to get the clutter under control. I have Peter DVR'd and I am going to follow him to the clutter-free promised land. My family deserves better, and I deserve better. This is the year that my dining room table will remain clear, and the year that I will finally be comfortable in my own skin.
Wish me luck, I am going to need it.